you sat in the passenger seat as we cruised down the street. I've forgotten by now where we were going to or coming from.
I was telling you that I had a friend who worked at a particular restaurant,
"Well...not a friend, but a girl I used to know."
"There seem to be a lot of people that you know but don't talk to anymore."
I brushed off your comment with some type of "Well, that's life." statement. I'm sure you knew that I was just trying to not get too deep into the topic (somehow you seem to understand me more than most people.)
but you see, your words have stuck with me. They've been running through my mind ever since you've said them.
It seems to me that a lot of time, (however there are exceptions) people don't really stick around. We all change with the seasons; the wind blows us away and we never really come back. Any one-sided efforts to keep in touch are in vain.
but this time I was leaving.
And maybe you thought it would be,
I know I can't control anything,
but you see,
I never wanted that to be you.
This resonates with me, too. I feel like....sometimes relationships just fall away. Or for whatever reason it's safer to push people away. I didn't know for a long time that I was the type of person to keep myself very sheltered and not let many in. I became aware of this only in the past year. So, maybe it's a personality-type thing. Maybe it's a season or a phase. But maybe it needs to change. Thank you for sharing this!
ReplyDeleteI totally get this.
ReplyDeleteI became sheltered over time; I used to call myself friends with everyone, and then a series of people "dumping" me led me to believe that I somehow wasn't good enough. And that I would never waste my time on other human beings again. So now I shut most people out, and eventually they move on. It's kinda rough.
well tell her that I miss our little talks... (gah I just love that song)
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